whats on my phone!!??

i always read these posts from jessica @ the Lowe Family News... so here's mine.

first time pigtailer right thurrr.

sometimes its ok to go to target matching your cousin && screaming

with excitment seeing as how it's your first time in

the double seater cart thingy.

monster baby.

rylie likes to help walk the dog.

however,

dora isnt too fond of getting run over.

dora after seeing a big dog....

yes im the bestest at matching her outfits.

squishy face

cruisin in walmart, maybe eating some fries...maybe.

future hotdogger. yes thats a real word.

my best friend happens to be a hot dogger.

super model status.

arkansas on the brain.

all we can think about is arkansas!

we want to move around august. but we have lots to save up, lets hope it all falls into place.

see up there in the right hand corner... right where it says jonesboro??

yeah thats where going :)
close to memphis.
a train ride away from new orleans.
a drive to florida.
basically right in the middle of everything.
im so excited to spend my 21st birthday doing something so different.
in a place so new.
we had wanted to take a trip to see it before but decided its a waste of money. we're just going to wing it. travel cross country with rylie jane && start a new chapter. mardi gras next year... yeah we'll be there :) daniel && i have double date buddies {my cousin && her bf}, rylie has a playmate only 3 months older {baby cousin farrah}, && most of all we'll have my amazing grandmother :)

i cant wait to have my grandma teach me some of her mad cookin skills.

i'm excited to spend afternoons watching cartoons with her too.

i can finally experience hobby lobby.

when its hot out we can hit up the river for a good ole river float.

do some shopping in a mall that i dont know like the back of my hand.

rylie can wake up too a white christmas.

sunday family dinners will resume.


i had too, i sure do love me some Norman Rockwell :)


pretty much.. im excited, nervous, anxious, scared, hopeful, && so ready for our family adventure!



&& valentines day was amazing!
rylie && i took a long much needed nap.
daniel got home && we just spent family time together.
ate a yummy nummy dinner at olive garden as a family.
came home to cuddle on the couch.
had a nice walk/run with a great friend around my monsterously hilly neighborhood.
&& watched the bad girls club.

shesh im one lucky lady <3333

dreams.

"Dream as if you have forever.

Live as if you only have today."

James Dean

dreams are the limitless imagination of all hopes && wants mixed together. I'm constantly creating new ones && adding to old ones. they comfort me && make me hopeful for the future, forcing me to realize everyday is so precious. thinking about the possibilities of making all these dreams reality can leave me feeling anxiety && complete bliss in the same thought.
what if i cant make it happen??
what if there's just not enough time??
why didn't i do something today to get me that much closer??
but everything is possible. dreams really do come true.
if i make it possible, if i make it come true.
i think of myself standing there in my vision smiling while the "camera" pans out && my arms are out to my sides just soaking up the sun (there's sun in just about every fantasy of mine) without a care in the world. the background being vivid && ideal to that specific dream.

here's a list of these dreams, at least the ones i can think of. maybe i can come up with some sort of organization for my brain. to see what can be achieved first && what can stay just a dream. here goes.


some dreams are as simple as a perfectly organized closet.


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 to living in far away lands, like South Africa. spending days exploring the terrain, soaking up sun on the beaches, && completely emerging myself in their culture.


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&& then my favorite, wanting to live in the south, maybe Georgia or Tennessee, in a house with a big porch that wraps around my white house. in the evening daniel && i will sip sweet tea while rylie && our other future children run and play on the tire swing from the giant tree in the front yard.



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 i definately have more, but right now Safe Haven by Nicholas Sparks is calling my Name

no big deal.

yesturday


rylie took her very first steps
all by herself.

no big deal, right?


i was getting ready to go shopping &&
i sat down to see her for a little when all
of the sudden she took five whole steps!
i started hollaring for daniel to hurry && get
the camera{{his phone}} && how does he respond...
"hold on let me blow my nose."

really daniel?? really?
of course your stinkin runny nose is way more
important than rylie's FIRST STEPS.
haha typical daniel.
we are just amazed at her over acheiving
ways already :) all we wanted was for her
to be able to walk by her birthday, in march,
&& it looks like she might even be running
by then! that's my girl.

in other exciting news a challenge has begun
in this house.

a weightloss/ get healthy challenge!
finally we committed to what we knew we needed
to do a long time ago. not only because being fat,
not just chunky anymore, was so annoying but because
rylie deserves to grow up with healthy parents.
it wouldn't be fair for her to have to struggle with
weight && eating later on in life when it's so easy
to stop it all now.
diet.
i hate that word.
nobody wants to be on a diet. few can really honestly
follow it. even fewer are actually happy following it.
so instead of a diet, we decided to just make smarter
decisions about what we put in our mouth.
eat whatever we want but remember portion control!
plus we have the your shape video game for our wii

&& we are always trying to out do each other. 
which motivates me to get off my booty to work out.
we end our workouts literally drenched in sweat so
i'd say it's working!! i hope. haha

bff's??

while reading Little Miss Momma!! i also decided that there's a few things best friends should know && its definitely a good post to start this off. sho here's my version of her

"Things you should know about me

if we're gonna be BFF"

if we are going to be best friends you need to know:

my dog IS my 1st born. I'm completely obsessed && deeply in love with her.

if i don't sleep enough or skip a meal.... I'm grumpy.

I'm genetically predisposed to be sarcastic. half the time you'll just think I'm plain mean. but since we're bff's you should know, I'm not ;)

i L-O-V-E to read. holy cannoli.

everything makes me cry. births, weddings, commericals,  && even people winning random things.

i basically grew up in retirement apartments. that being said some of my first best friends were all over the age of 65 :)

not only did that lead to my sweetness && my big heart, but I'm pretty dang amazing at puzzles && Yahtzee.

my great grandmother is honestly the most amazing woman {besides my mother} to ever walk the earth. she helped me become the woman i am today && taught me more than most people will ever know themselves.

i miss my her. alot

i would hurt someone over dark chocolate.

i sometimes give rylie some puffs so she stays put. sleeping doesnt happen too much for me so the whole chaising her around thing isn't always that appealing.

when i talk my eyes light up...i can feel it. they get all shiney && happy.

laughing is my absolute favorite. seeing as how were bff's you need to do lots.
im looking for someone to hire to do my laundry. interested???

i have this crazy feeling of needing to be amazing/memorable/successful. i want to change peoples lives. yet im just completely stuck when it comes to decided how to make that happen. there is so much i want to do that i get anxeity just thinking of it. {which im also genetically predisposed to lol}